Deep within jen

我回来啦！

2011-11-27T20:52:00.000+01:00

在这凉风习习的地方，静静的反省自己。虽然身边都是一群群的人，唯独我们悄悄的坐在一旁。你，专注的翻阅着最近沉迷的书。而我，在这冷冷的夜里，心情，思绪，都冻结了起来。好久没有这样诉说自己的心情。好一段时间没有写下我的故事。我，忘了反省自己。我，忘了自己。从最简单的说起吧。在这里居住了六个月，很少机会静静坐着看看那美丽的夜景。然而这几天的我，都是坐在这儿欣赏那灿烂的景色。刹那间我才恍然大悟，自己迷失了那么久。前些日子的我，可以忘了怎么呼吸。那么简单的一个动作，我竟然没有察觉到。一路走来，的确有点累。那么多轰轰烈烈的经历，难免也要回复平淡。就像现在的我，这一刻的我。现在的我，清醒了。还记得你不断摇醒我吗？？她说，梦醒啦。平时都是有人相伴。可现在，一个人，我觉得挺好的。没什么大不了。你不觉得吗？因为啊，我这就一个人生活啊！！哈哈！！说实在的，在短短一段时间，我就复原了。值得庆幸的是，我找回自己啦。那个失散多年的我，回来啦！！看透了人间聚散，我只能淡淡的笑着。我们会有明天吗？谁来解答？可我知道，我的明天留给那些值得我爱，值得我付出的人。感谢你们丰富了我的人生。我要一个人过得开开心心。我对自己说，没什么事情是我做不到的。你清楚自己想要过怎样的生活吗？？是那个每天忙于工作，忙着追求物质上的需求，还是什么？？你有仔细的想过吗？？我有。我清楚自己要的生活，不要的生活。曾经一时和自己失散了，我不断提醒自己别再重蹈复测。谢谢你。没有你的出现，我并不晓得自己的定力还不够。我，好喜欢这一刻的自己。接下来的每一天，我会更懂得爱惜自己。不会再为了任何人委屈自己。再见了。

还不了解吗？

2011-08-29T15:36:00.000+02:00

前些日子，我沉醉于工作。每天忙得忘我，早上工作，晚间读读书，做些自己爱做的事。很多时候忽略了朋友。还好真心的朋友们都懂得谅解我。谢谢你们。当我安定下来，找找朋友聚聚时，却遇见了不愉快的事。人啊，活着都有自己的梦想与行动。你们凭什么否定我的选择呢？？其实，偶尔也会忍无可忍的，毕竟我也是个正常的人嘛。。难免会气昏头。哈哈！！不过，朋友啊。。谢谢你与我分享。可是，凡事要适可而止，懂吗？？在这样下去恐怕我要避开你了。。还有人会单单纯纯的想和我喝杯茶，聊聊近况吗？？我不介意你分享，只是别把你的一套想法灌输在我身上。那根本行不通啊。。我有我的主见啊，不见得应该听取你的吧？？不是吗？？我当然替你高兴找到自己的目标。也同时可以真心为你加油打气。只是，朋友啊，不要再重复犯错了。我们啊，原本无所不谈，可现在，见了面，甚至电话里，我也不想多说。我没有恨你，没侵犯我，哪来的恨呢？？只是我们已经无法像以前一样，无所不谈啦。那见面又有什么意义呢？？真心的朋友们，我在这里真的要好好感激你们的爱戴。爱你们哟。。嘻嘻！！

It's been a long gone :)

2011-08-27T16:49:00.004+02:00

有多久不写日志了？一开始不写，是不想说，不想写，不想跟别人透露自己的心事。后来不写，是累了，是习惯了，是真的明白了：不要一遍一遍的把你的伤口坦露给别人看。别人看了，最多同情一下，安慰两声，然后转身就笑了。而你，却一直在拿自己的伤口折磨着自己。

我的痛，只有我自己懂

2011-06-27T17:57:00.002+02:00

我的痛，只有我自己懂，总是喜欢在如此孤独的夜里，翻起过去，那些被自己深埋心底的往事，得到的，拥有的，失去的，有种恍然如梦的感觉。一直都很明白，自己是不该沉迷于过去的。其实，我是害怕深夜的，会有一种无尽的寂寞袭向我；我却又喜欢深夜，因为只有周围漆黑一片，我和我的泪才是安全的。

学习，学习。

2011-06-25T08:22:00.000+02:00

最近沉醉于工作。每天尽心尽力的奋斗着。。你们呢？？

工作的性质的确会造成很大的影响。你每天接触的人，你每一天沟通的人，都影响着你。
我每一天见得顾客，都有值得我学习的地方。他们分享自己的人生经验，甚至一切切。

其中有个话题让我深感兴趣。

他说：马来西亚有一部分的男生都比较粗俗，缺乏良好的教养。malaysian man lack of good manner, most of the time is kinda rude. 听了，我都感到震撼。不过，认真想想也对。当然值得一提的是，不是所有的男生，所以别自作多情啦。

家庭的背景，身份，也有很大的影响吧。最重要的是接受的教育。良好的修养，家教，不是一日之间可以改变的。他是这么对我说。最让我惊讶的是，他本身也是男人，都这么认为了。

他的这番话，让我想起一个人。
对，他说的没错。我曾经试图改变一个人，好让他可以改掉一些坏脾气，坏习惯。没想到自己那么多此一举。江山易改，本性难移。最后，我还是放弃了。那是他自己的选择，而我无能为力。希望有天他可以好好的反省，认认真真的改过。

忠言逆耳利于行，可你却认为我恶意伤害你。对不起。
其实我们每天都在学习。我有何尝不是？？希望你们不断提升自己，越变越好。
不要为了利益，而忘了自我，甚至伤害了身边关心你的人。

该转身的时候就要转身离开。

2011-06-23T17:47:00.000+02:00

不要等到忍无可忍才想着去放弃不适合你的男人。
时间是女人最宝贵的财富，该转身的时候就要转身离开，哪怕要过好一段伤心的日子，你也要明白，那就是个错误，无需再花时间去证明了。

我还有我自己

2011-06-17T17:46:00.000+02:00

有时候，忽然觉得自己很孤独。没有人懂你，没有人陪你。

偶尔自己闹，自己疯，仿佛跟这世界格格不入。

身边的人，都有各自的生活，我们再也回不到从前形影不离的温暖。

在转身的一瞬间，碎裂成行。他走了，她走了，他们都走了。

你还有你自己，你不孤独。

你我的自由

2011-05-24T16:41:00.000+02:00

我不期望任何人了解我。每个人对生活，对任何事物，对身边的一切切，都有自己的一套想法。你又何必勉强别人，甚至试图改变别人的想法？

也许，这一刻的我觉得自己好可悲，也或许很凄凉。试想想，你又明白多少？
每天压抑自己的情绪，真的不好受。我有自由可以发泄任何情绪，甚至在自己的空间述说我的心情。不管好的，坏的，都是我的自由。就算是短短的几句，我也觉得快活！
对，坏心情没什么大不了的。这我当然懂。难道我要发泄都要经过你们的允许吗？

其实，很多时候我只是抱着分享的心情。
人总是容易忘记。偶尔用心的提醒你们，亲爱的朋友们，记得多多感恩，还有珍惜身边的一切。难道这也有错啊？你办到了吗？我有我自己的看法。如果你无法同意，可以离去，我毫不在乎。但是，请你尊重他人。

我做的没一件事，说的每一句话，不需要经过任何人的允许！只要没有侵犯任何人，那都无所谓。因为这是我的发言权，是我的言论自由！

哎呀。。
我的情感又再作祟了。嘻嘻~

这一切的一切都无所谓。那些都是我人生的一些回忆。
如果你感兴趣想要参与，我欢迎你。要是你没兴趣，那倒无所谓，你可以悄悄离开。。
你有你的选择。我不会勉强。

愿你们都幸福。

坚强的后果

2011-05-17T12:35:00.000+02:00

在第一次选择坚强的时候，一定要想清楚：你是否做好了承受一切的准备。因为一旦你选择了坚强，即使只是假装的，你也必须一直坚持下去。因为你曾经的坚强会让人以为即使再大的苦，你也撑得住。

我体会了这一点。

其实，我没有你们想象那么坚强。好多时候都期待有人可以替我加油，打打气。。你们的鼓励对我而言多么可贵啊。就像宝贝一样天天都陪着我，给我鼓励。谢谢你哦。。

新的环境，新的工作，转眼已经过了短短三个星期。天啊~

时间真的不等人啊。一个人开着车，上下班，塞车，等着黑夜的来临。一天天就这样度过了。。

偶尔觉得活着也不知道为了什么。

好多时候都很羡慕那些人。简单的快，平凡的过每一天。无时无刻都带着笑容。放工后可以和家人聊天。而我只能靠着电话联系。。呜呜~~~~

我不知道什么时候开始变得沉默。就连笑容也渐渐的不翼而飞了。

我在想，坚强的后果，就是这样吧。

自己承担一切切，就算天塌下来，也要有本事撑着。多么凄凉。。哈哈！

我们无时无刻都得感恩。感觉妈妈的存在，感谢她对我的谅解，还有她无限的爱与支持。

妈，好想你。我爱你。

电话里头也一样会说爱妈妈哦。。。你们呢??

就差。。。那个人

2011-04-18T12:55:00.000+02:00

认识我十几年的朋友们都说我坚强，独立。哈哈！

一开始，我也这么觉得。可惜，经过时间的洗礼，我不再信心满满的这么夸自己。

人老了，勇气和自信，也渐渐的消减了吧。

面试的日子，真的不好受。每天跑动跑西的。槟城-怡保-吉隆坡，通往这三个地方奔波。哪怕有一天身子挺不住风吹雨打，病倒了。。可笑的是，不是我病了，而是车子抛锚了。

其实，我深信只要不放弃，就会有希望。果然让我得逞了。终于找到一份不错的工作。坦白说，是别人口中的赞扬而已。我还没亲自体验。嘻嘻～

首先，要感激你。有你陪我，东奔西跑的。我才不会累坏身子。

每次看到我很失落，疲倦时，你都会陪在我身边，鼓励我。谢谢你。生活不一定要荣华富贵才会体验到幸福的滋味。平平凡凡也是不一样的享受。我感受到了。。

还要谢谢妈妈。有了妈妈，真的很幸福。妈妈不断体谅我，激励我，才会有今天的我。

坚强的我背后的故事，你又知多少？？

如果可以选择，我真的不想这样过。我也希望有人宠，面对问题有人可以帮我解决。可惜，我的人生路并不允许那么一帆风顺。唯有自己慢慢一步步的走过来。在被逼的情况下学会扛下承重的负担，值得骄傲吗？真的没有人希望这么过的。。。

我相信，流过的汗水，眼泪，一直坚持，一直的努力不懈，是不会白费的。

生活其实就那么简单。找个自己喜欢的工作，和一个喜欢的人。

我找到了工作（喜欢以否，还无法判断），只差。。。。。。那个人，生活就完整了。哈哈。

KLCC exhibitiOn March 2011

2011-04-12T13:18:00.000+02:00

Jen quit the first jOb in just One mOnth, which is nOt lOng agO. Can yOu imagine that?? it was sO hard tO get the right jOb fOr myself. hOw many cOmpanies available fOr a biOtech undergraduate like jen in Malaysia??

Being an adult is nOt an easy task.

Jen struggle, but then manage tO recall my sOuls. FOr each and everyOne Of us tO stay "cOnsciOus" mOst Of the time cOnsumes lOtzz Of energy. that's why jenjen prefer tO stay in a BLUR state, yet nOw wasn't the right time. jen shOuldn't waste time.

Let's see what jen did during the exhibitiOn at KLCC. The mOst fascinating mOment during this periOd is tea break..hahahha. There are lOtzz Of fOod, pastries were served. Other than that, jen dOn't think yOu like it.

camwhOre time :)

jen acting cute :)

headache with it :(

peace :)

chubby jen :)

sweet jen :)

blekk ~

the end Of the day. the end Of jen's first jOb.

wish there is a brand new episOd Of wOrking life, a mOre fascinating One fOr jen. ^^

stay tune :)

my first JOb

2011-03-31T18:22:00.001+02:00

this year is gOing tO be a big year fOr jen after finished studies. until nOw jen still lOoking arOund fOr a prOper job. haizz. nOwadays, it's hard fOr the emplOyers to get the right peOple fOr the jObs, and it's hard fOr jen tO figure it Out tOo. sOb~~

Okay, straight tO the pOint. jen quit the first jOb in just One mOnth, what a shOcking news huh!!
well, jen kinda tOo rush and nervOus fOr future d, perhaps. guess jen shOuld take a slOw and steady pace in getting a right jOb. any suggestions??

anyhOw jen did learned sOme lessOns during this shOrt periOd. glad tO knOw a few Of them in the cOmpany.
fOr thOse whO are same with jen, lOst Out there, dO take yOur time. jen's gOd mOther said: " getting a right jOb is like getting yOurself a gOod hubby, sO dOn't rush." teeheeee ♥

jen is fOrtunate cOz there is sOmeOne always there, giving jen the best suppOrt. muackss ♥
can't imagine life withOut a great mummy, family, and friends, and yOu.

NObOdy can gO back and start a new beginning, but anyOne can start nOw and make a new ending. lOve yOu guys mucchhh :)

babyjen cOnvOcatiOn

2011-03-21T14:54:00.003+01:00

写部落格一段时间了。。曾经不想再继续，不过都没放弃。

还记得你说，这些也是回忆啊。将来一页页翻阅时，会有不同的感触。至今，我都没停止。。

毕业典礼也刚结束。

转眼间，我都大学毕业了。老了一圈。。哈哈！！

唯一可惜的事，家人无法在当天出席。还好有宝贝们和你陪我，嗯。。忘了也有一班一起度过大学生涯的朋友们。谢谢你们这些年来对我的照顾与关爱。

没有你们相伴，日子真的很单调。没有你们的喧闹声，没有你们的陪伴。呜呜。。

特别谢谢你。

谢谢你陪我度过那么长的一段时间。希望我们都会有美好的将来。

babyjen's cOnvOcatiOn (20 March 2011)

jen wOke up very earrrrrllllyy in the mOrning fOr this event. jen is extremely sleepy On that particular day..

anyhOw jen still managed tO spend sometime, in a partially "cOntiOus" moment, camwhOre in the car :) heee~

thank yOu dear :)

lOve "winnie the pOoh", muacks ♥

ma dearrsss~ muacks..lOve yOu bOth sOoooo much.

thanks fOr being there fOr jenjen ya ^^

thanks baObei fOr this gift, sO sweet and jen likes them this ♥ muccchhh, teeeheeeee ♥

yeechan and bOnnie ♥

glad tO see yOu twO after such a lOng gOne, miss lab time with yOu twO ^^

from left: suren, jen, mummy (yinyee), kylie

mummy ♥

jzhing, finally fOund yOu in the crOwd. haha :)

dOn't fOrget Our deal On "earlgrey tea" ya.

last but nOt least, yian leOng.

wish yOu all the best in future ya..

lOtzzz Of lOve frOm jen ♥

babyjen cOnvOcatiOn

2011-03-21T14:54:00.000+01:00

写部落格一段时间了。。曾经不想再继续，不过都没放弃。

还记得你说，这些也是回忆啊。将来一页页翻阅时，会有不同的感触。至今，我都没停止。。

毕业典礼也刚结束。

转眼间，我都大学毕业了。老了一圈。。哈哈！！

没有你们相伴，日子真的很单调。没有你们的喧闹声，没有你们的陪伴。呜呜。。

特别谢谢你。

谢谢你陪我度过那么长的一段时间。希望我们都会有美好的将来。

babyjen's cOnvOcatiOn (20 March 2011)

jen wOke up very earrrrrllllyy in the mOrning fOr this event. jen is extremely sleepy On that particular day..

anyhOw jen still managed tO spend sometime, in a partially "cOntiOus" moment, camwhOre in the car :) heee~

thank yOu dear :)

lOve "winnie the pOoh", muacks ♥

ma dearrsss~ muacks..lOve yOu bOth sOoooo much.

thanks fOr being there fOr jenjen ya ^^

thanks baObei fOr this gift, sO sweet and jen likes them this ♥ muccchhh, teeeheeeee ♥

yeechan and bOnnie ♥

glad tO see yOu twO after such a lOng gOne, miss lab time with yOu twO ^^

from left: suren, jen, mummy (yinyee), kylie

mummy ♥

jzhing, finally fOund yOu in the crOwd. haha :)

dOn't fOrget Our deal On "earlgrey tea" ya.

last but nOt least, yian leOng.

wish yOu all the best in future ya..

lOtzzz Of lOve frOm jen ♥

March 2011

2011-03-18T18:00:00.000+01:00

life has been treating jen quite well. althOugh it is a bit dull cOmpare tO previOus lifestyle, but at least we are all safe and live in peace. unlike the cOnditiOns at Japan, really unpredictable and tOtally uncOntrOlable. we are lucky... dO pray fOr them, may the gOd be with them.

March is packed with wOrking life and that's it, nOhing cOlOrful. jen still nOt get used tO it due tO the working time. lol~ sleeping has been a perfect cOmpany since jen's uni life ended. teeeheeee ^^

Only One week left fOr March, cOuntdOwn fOr April. any new plans fOr April guys??

Im still yOung, yOung, im sOoooooooo yOung. Okay, this is what jen heard all the time. lol~

fOr thOse whO have engaged in wOrking life fOr ages, all Of them said sO. tO jen, this age, i am OLD d.

anyhOw, life is unpredictable, nObOdy can fOrsee what happen On the next day even the future. sO all we have tO dO at this particular mOment is appreciate all the thing that belOngs tO yOu, NOW.

bed time guys.

tOmOrO back tO KL fOr anOther brand new week. wish jen LUCK. hee.

small dream

2011-02-25T17:59:00.002+01:00

A small part Of babyjen's life.

jen's life is just like thOse cOlOrful ballOons.. Many Of my friends encOurage jen tO dO mOdeling.

well, that's One part Of jen's life. jen tried Out, jen acquired prOfessiOnal catwalk, and that's it.

when there are OppOrtunities, jen will definitely grab it. cheers ^^

at this particular mOment, jen needs sOmething else. sOmething that can fully absOrbed jen's attentiOn. lol~

yOu knOw, jen has high requirements in almOst anything. wooooaahhh~ sOunds pathetic!!

Okay, life is tOo shOrt tO dO just One small thing. jen wants tO perfOrm better, and shines On my Own.

stay tune my friends ^^

have a lOvely day ya.

我要的只是如此而已。。

2011-02-24T17:30:00.001+01:00

我要有个人和我一起吃饭，只要开心，路边摊一样吃的很满足。

我要下班时，有个人在门口等我，然后手牵手一起逛街。

我要在我难过时，有个肩膀让我依偎，好让我感到安慰。

我要在我孤单时，有个人给我发短信，让我听你的声音。

我要的只是一声乖，一句问候，一句别怕宝贝，我一会就去找你。

我要的只不过是如此而已。。

一个人的世界

2011-02-18T16:50:00.002+01:00

一个人听歌

一个人走路

一个人难过

一个人开心

一个人自言自语

一个人自哼自唱

习惯一个人独坐

没有忧伤

没有烦恼

没有思念

习惯一个人睡

忘记时间

忘记存在

忘记没有忘记的过去；

习惯一个人的世界

因为一个人的世界

只有自己懂

加油。。

2011-02-16T18:30:00.000+01:00

大学生涯告一段落后，我有好长一段时间没阅读了。最近逛街，都在看书，买书。嗯，该多多培养自己的内涵了。嘻嘻！！接下来的日子，我也要继续加油。加油，加油！！！

不管时间再忙，再充实，我也要多阅读。还有，多多更新部落格。

近期有点空闲，偶尔都会玩手机游戏，更新部落格，上网，还有好多好多。
手机功能如此丰富。可以打电话，短信，看时间，计算机，听歌，听歌看视频，写 blog，看书，上网，录音，游戏，闹钟，还有好多功能。你用上几种呢？
我发现自己依靠手机太多了。以上的功能，差不多每一样我都天天用着耶～
谢谢你。有了它，我的生活更精彩啦。嘻嘻！！我会好好利用它的。

好想拍照。
我忽略了自己的兴趣。。忘了为自己的生活，每一天的点点滴滴都拍下来。
嗯～明天开始努力，努力！要好好为生活写一本纪念册。嘻嘻～

日子松懈了，一切就变得毫不在乎，无所谓了。我太懒惰了！！
天啊，夜深了，该睡觉咯。晚安。

time is lOve ♥

2011-02-14T14:51:00.000+01:00

耳边传来叮当的 “一半” 。。

快乐少一人分享快乐就只剩一半。。

没有人分享幸福只剩一半

好喜欢这首歌。情人节应该为自己买张CD，可惜那天逛街时忘了。
我忘了为自己买一份礼物，让自己开开心心的度过。不过，明天就 2 月 15 啦。。情人节就过去了。哈哈！没情人的朋友们啊，别那么难过了。

我答应自己一定要幸福，快乐。就算一个人过，也要快乐。你们也一样哦。

还记得，你曾经追求，曾经渴望想要拥有的东西吗？当你拥有时已经没有当初期待时的兴奋了。你想要的东西，终于掌握的那一天，你渴望的却是那些你还没到手的东西。
不管在爱情世界里，还是生活的每一个情节，都一样。朋友啊，可别忘了珍惜啊。

人的一生，真的很短暫，遇到可以給于你幸福的人，請珍惜他/她。

我守着部落格几个晚上，心情也慢慢好转了。
接下来的日子，我都会努力的把每一天都填满。谢谢你们的安慰。我不孤单 ^^

买了份礼物给你。

从来不曾那么奢侈的我，竟然破天荒这么做。哈哈！只希望你开心，就那么简单。

我的好，或许你从来不知道。但没关系，只想让你知道你对我多么重要。

我相信，我会幸福的。

情人节快乐哦 ♥

lOve comes along with Miracles ♥

2011-02-13T17:39:00.000+01:00

it's valentines tOmOro. any plan guys??
jen cOuntdOwn, day by day, hOurs by hOurs, cOz jen have tO gO back tO KL in 2 days time...
frankly speaking, jen is kinda addicted tO this life, the life here. jen seriOusly lOve here ♥

Okay, back tO reality.
it's time tO get a jOb and wOrk On it. hehe~ since jen been lazying fOr abOut mOnths d.
life is kinda unmOtivated withOut targets, and when things aren't On the right path, it is suckssss!!!
deep in jen's heart, jen knew, it's time. gambatte ne!!!

valentine...
dO yOu fOund yOur lOve One?? dO yOu appreciate the days and mOment spent tOgether??
yOu shOuld !!
in the first mOment where yOu fOund the right persOn, when yOu decided tO gO and get her, yOu shOuld learn hOw tO hOld it tight. hOld On tO yOur believe, tO make her happy. hOld her hands, and make ways tO the future, with her. hOld On tO the faith where bOth Of yOu can make it tO the end..

tO lOve sOmeOne deeply gives yOu strength,

being lOved by sOmeOne deeply gives yOu cOurage

sO, dO appreciates the lOve yOu've discOvered.

jen hOld On tO a believe - where there is great lOve, there are always Miracles.

♥ happy valentines everyOne ♥

emO day

2011-02-12T16:33:00.000+01:00

AnOther tiring day fOr jen ..
wOke up early in the mOrning, jen was expecting sOmething warm, happy, Or perhaps a simple day. unfOrtunately, tOday was a busy day, toO. the hOt weather did play a part in this emO day :(

we rushed tO the hOspital tO fetch grandma after her eye surgery.. it tOok jen few hOurs there, waiting and keep waiting.. gOssshhhhh!!! sOme peOple just didn't realized that they are wasting Others' time. jen almOst faint while waiting fOr almOst half day there, in that hOspital. can yOu imagine pay bill alsO tOok abOut an hOurs ~

Okay, waiting still nOt a real big deal fOr jen.
Hmm~ guess what is the mOst irritating thing fOr jen? can yOu make the right guess??
NAgging... jen hates peOple whO keep nagging arOund jen. life is tOo shOrt fOr us tO nag, lol~ they are turning jen's wOrld rOund and rOund. at that particular mOment, hOw jen wishes jen cOuld glue their mOuth.. teeeheee ~ jen is prOud tO have mummy whO seldOm Or dOn't even nag at jen, cOol isn't it?? just try tO cOmmunicate with yOur mum, and jen assure yOu, she will understand yOu. dO remember with a gOod and prOper manner ya..

nOw, jen lying On bed, alOne. well, nOt really alOne..with all Of yOu, cOnnected thrOugh the internet. thanks fOr being with jen all the time, when there is nObOdy arOund. ^^

life is changing, day by day. peOple are changing tOo..
jen still lOoking arOund, fOr the right persOn, tO suppOrt each Others, tO hOld jen's hands tight, and gO On fOr the rest Of Our life. sadly, it is nOt an easy task. until tOday, jen still believes, family are the Only One whO will be with jen, always ♥
jen dOn't have the ability tO fOrce peOple whO keep lying, jen can't stOp Others frOm hurting jen, again and again. jen Only have the ability tO prOtect myself..

mOst Of them Only realized that they have lOst sOmething very impOrtant when there is nO turning back. dOn't be One Of them, Okay??
why can't they appreciate things they have, Or peOple and family that always be there fOr yOu?? they just don't get it..

Opppsss...
bedtime, nite everyOne.

jen wishes fOr a lOvely day tOmOrO ♥

年初三

2011-02-08T17:11:00.001+01:00

年初三

今年终于可以团聚啦。三年都缺了哥哥一起庆祝，但今年不同咯。嘻嘻～

finally, jen can celebrate chinese new year with brother d. heeeeee..

我憔悴了。。。

妈妈第一次曝光，哈哈！
可爱吧。。

帅帅的哥哥～

天真的妹妹 ♥

转眼间，新年就酱一天一天的过去。。
我很庆幸，很幸运可以拥有那么幸福的家。新年期间得到的爱，足以让我努力往前走了。
爱你们哦 ♥

胡思乱想

2011-01-21T11:12:00.000+01:00

大学生涯就酱结束了。说真的还蛮不舍的。。

虽然每一天都忙碌不堪，但至少我过得有意义，也很充实。大三更是忙上加忙，完成了自己的研究时兴奋不已。还记得当时压力大，还有朋友们在身边陪伴着我，互相扶持，互相鼓励。。相反地，和现在真的无法相提并论。哈哈！！

一路以来都一个人面对问题。不管是好的坏的，都自己承担。多么渴望有人可以和我一起分担。有好多时候都是有苦自己知。不管有多疲劳，都自己收拾心情，不断鼓励自己，才能坚持到现在的。多亏妈妈的教诲，最爱的就是妈妈了。对，我来自单亲家庭。哪又如何？？

那天听见他那么说，我真的哭了。单亲家庭又如何？我们经历的事物不同，不过体验不少。有谁不希望自己在完美的环境下成长啊？那天，我领悟了好多事。老实说，要好好和别人相处的确不容易。我们的成长环境，家境，学历，教育，家教，都会导致种种的冲突。每个人受到的教育方式，导致分析事情的角度，看法，都不一样。我重视的，你不一定认同。唉～

朋友啊，我也希望可以找到一个理解自己的人。真的那么难吗？

哎呀～时间飞逝得让人觉得可怕！！我又在胡思乱想啦。嘻嘻～

愿你们有美好的一天 ^^

it's always abOut appreciatiOn

2011-01-20T11:39:00.001+01:00

happy thaipusam everyOne.

jen wOke up early in the mOrning, but there is nOthing much tO dO. mOst Of jen's friends are heading fOr their activities with family and friends. hOw jen wish jen's family is here nOw. huhu~ nObOdy believes jen is sO damn lOnely all the time, it is always Out Of yOur expectatiOns, jen knew it. well, there is nObOdy here fOr babyjen actually. anyhOw, lucky jen get used tO it d. special thanks to streamyx fOr prOviding jen internet services, lol !!
withOut it, jen wOuld have suffOcated lOng agO. cheers ^^

jen wana turn life arOund, dOnt wana stay this way anymOre!!!
jen is grateful tO have suppOrt frOm friends and family mOst Of the time. thank you ^^
new year, jen shOuld appreciates everything even MORE~
first Of all, jen wOuld like tO thank yOu fOr suppOrting jen all the time. sadly, there is Out Of chances d. yOu shOuld gO On yOur Own. lOve has brOught lOtzz Of experiences tO jen.
until nOw, jen sOmehOw still believes that it isn't easy fOr twO peOple frOm different backgrOund, different lifestyle, tO cOpe tOgether. jen dOn't have faith in it, fOr nOw. perhaps in cOming few years time, jen will try Out, but nOt nOw...

guys, dO remember One thing, as always. actiOns always speak lOuder than wOrds.
unfOrtunately, until nOw nObOdy win jen's heart cOz nObOdy can actually stick tO it. sadness!!!!

time tO let gO everything that brings unhappiness tO babyjen.
time tO cheer up myself ~~~ *wink wink*

没有我在身边，你要一个人好好过。
记得要学会感激，谢谢身边陪着你的那个人，还有家人。他们是你最大的能量。
加油哦！！！

belated cOuntdOwn

2011-01-19T19:37:00.000+01:00

time waits fOr nO man. it is nOw the third week Of jan 2011 d. Are yOu aware Of that?? hOpefully year 2011 brings lOtz Of luck fOr everyOne, including babyjen. *wink wink*

year 2010 ended in a hurry. everyOne Of us whO were rushing fOr Our final year prOjects and thesis did nOtice abOut that. hOw jen wishes jen able tO enjOy the final year a little bit slOw and steady, On the Other hand, we have mOre time tO spend with Our friends. jen missing yOu all sO mucchhh... huhu~~

there is nOthing much fOr last year, it was all abOut uni life. jen is happy cOz have the chance tO learn frOm Dr Choo, and seniors during the final year prOject periOd. jen is please tO have friends whO keep suppOrting each Others during the tOuchest mOment, thanks guys. lOves yOu all sO much.

jen is Officially graduated sOon. this cOming March, hurraaaaay!!!

Okay, tO be frank, jen miss uni life sO muchhhhh. appreciates everything yOu encOuntered everyday, every secOnd, every mOmentz. cheers.

babyjen in red ^^

jen is sO happy, hahahahhaha!!! well, yOu might be familiar with the backgrOund where jen stOod. dO yOu have any idea??? red and white is a great match, lOves it ^^

cOuntdOwn is an event that jen dun wana miss Out, this time. the main reasOn is that, jen finally graduated, yeaapppiiiii~ year 2011 will be a wOrking life, mature babyjen is On the way! haha.
this year, jen will have tO bear more respOnsibilities, life getting seriOus and tOugh. anyhOw, babyjen will be strOng cOz family is always there fOr jen. lOve them muccchhhhh ♥

have yOu figure Out what tO achieve this year?? what's yOur new year resOlutiOns??
dO make it clear tO yOurself, and wOrk it Out. gOod luck ya.

the first mOnth Of year 2011 is gOing tO end sOon. dO grab every chances yOu encOuntered.
there is nO turning back fOr yOur life, sO dO mOve fOrward with big and steady steps.
all the best tO everyOne.

jen hOpe that everyOne learn hOw tO appreciate and lOve their family members, lOver, and anyOne else.
lOtzz Of lOve frOm babyjen ♥ muacks muacks~

nite everyOne.

CamerOn Highlands

2011-01-13T09:00:00.000+01:00

well, jen haven't update fOr sOmetime d. jen apOlOgizes fOr being away fOr such a lOng time. jen have been kinda lazy'ing fOr past few weeks due tO seriOus health prOblem.jen was lucky cOz new year did brOught luck fOr jen, nOw jen is in an excellent cOnditiOn. yeapppiiiii ^^ thank gOd.

this will be the last pOst in year 2010.

jen basically still having hOlidays last 2 mOnths, jen still hang arOund Often. jen went tO CamerOn Highlands with family ♥ it has been mOre than 10 years jen didn't step tO the highland d.

the garden that is surOunded by fresh vegetables

cOlOrful Orkids

welcOme tO strawberry farm with babyjen ♥

to be frank, jen don't really like strawberry, haha!!! anyhOw, life is tOo shOrt fOr us tO hate sOmething Or sOmebOdy. jen did give them a chance tO create miracle in babyjen, lOl ~

fresh cabbage, the size is extremely large cOmpare tO thOse nOrmal cabbage we seen in the market.

last but nOt least, the Strawberry ^^

we were busy hunting fOr the juicy, sweet strawberry ♥

they are huge, aren't they??

these are the strawberry we cut frOm the farm ^^

Oppss!! jen tasted it way befOre we paid fOr it.

yummy ♥

we brOught a few packets back hOme...

year 2010 ended kinda in a hurry~

jen haven't well-prepared fOr the cOming new year but it is already HERE fOr us.

happy new year everyOne ^^

2010

2011-01-01T12:56:00.000+01:00

new year begins, jen have tO write a new histOry this year.
after graduated frOm UTAR, guess it's the time tO find my Own way... jen will gain the strength, the pOwer tO be a better persOn.

sOrry fOr abandOning jen's blOg fOr quite sOme time d.
jen have been dreaming bOut sOmething that dOesn't seem tO grOw, cOz nOw it's nOt the right time.
this mOment Onwards, jen will fOcus mOre On things tO be dOne On 2011.

new year will have lOtz Of new resOlutiOns, jen already set the target fOr this year, what bOut yOu??
all the best ya^^

lOtzz Of lOve frOm babyjen ~

我懂了

2010-12-07T18:53:00.000+01:00

我是幸福的。

我把你和我的幸福好好的收藏在心盒里。一点一滴的收好，不会遗漏任何细节。

这样一来，当你不在我身边时，我有它陪伴着我，带给我无穷的快乐。也许，你预知不了未来的路。可我，已经准备好了。没有你，我依然还有那些些记忆，珍藏在心里的某个角落。

我明白。

人生有聚散。就因为这样，我不顾一切。就因为如此，我努力过，也哭过。。

相处的时间虽短，却让咱们深深的了解彼此。我想，已经没有任何遗憾或感概了。为了你，我努力过，认真过。牺牲少少的时间换取自己的快乐。你永远都不会懂得我所付出的事。我停留在原地许久，还不舍得，不忍心，狠狠往前跨步。就为了多停留在你身边那么一下下。。

我错了。

曾经一次次伤害你。也曾一气之下，弄伤了你。你可否知道，我用心了许久。。好久好久。然而你，却是后知后觉。我也不懂自己还能坚持多久。在不自觉的情况下，我慢慢的释怀了。。慢慢的，我已经不去介意，不再争吵。试想想，我不曾如此用心，不曾如此努力，既然这样，我还执着些什么？渐渐的，我没那么固执了。冷静想想，我错了，是我的错。对不起。

我想，真的该往前走了。

请原谅我。

back tO nOrmal

2010-11-26T09:52:00.000+01:00

it's been a lOng gOne.

jen has been trying hard tO lOad the page yet everything dOesn't seem in the right pOsitiOn.

it refrain jen frOm updating anything at all~

jenjen just reach Penang, a warm + nice place to hang Out.

anyOne here????

anyhOw, jen is kinda rush in the mOrning n left Out jen's camera. sOb~~~

jen miss all Of yOu pretty much

♥

乱了～

2010-11-19T04:15:00.000+01:00

心情很沉重。

好想找个人聊聊心事，谈谈天。可惜，知心朋友少之又少。唉～

晚上回到家，又是一个人。夜深了，我该向谁倾诉呢？

最近的生活枯燥乏味。每天都是忙忙忙，导致自己身心疲累。一个人睡不着，胡思乱想的，更糟！！夜夜折腾，很难入睡。凌晨才入睡，天还没亮我就起床了。我到底怎么了？？
试问，有谁，谁会细心陪伴我，让我苦诉心事？你吗？我尝试要分享时，你从来不曾专心聆听。我才发现每当我真正需要朋友时，寥寥无几。多么可悲啊！

想起吵吵闹闹的日子，的确不好过。话说不清楚，语无伦次，误解，陆陆续续加深了我们的恩怨。我只想好好的受保护，被人疼爱。真的就那么简单。我烦了，也倦了，可否让我潇洒的离去？可否让我好好的疗伤？我不要，真的不要不断的重复犯错了！！！

唉～人，常常忘了珍惜。每当失去了才后知后觉。
昨夜，你找我聊天，谈着我们的过去。那些事情，那些回忆，随着时间慢慢淡忘了。。。
你何必再提起呢？这一刻的一句对不起，还能生效吗？我早已忘怀，不介意了。何必为了一个不懂得珍惜自己的人感伤，流泪呢？我唯有真心祝你幸福，不是吗？
回想起当时的自己是多么的愚蠢，多么的可笑。我不断提醒自己别那么傻了～

那些一道道的伤痕，还没复原。请你，不要再接近我。
我真的累了。。。

我还在发呆，神不守舍的。工作，上课，都神经兮兮的。可否让我恢复原来的我？那个骄傲，自大，独立，的自己？朋友说，放下吧，别再执着了。
认真想想，是时候出发了。我还眷恋什么？？值得吗？？

我该离开了。

Nokia N8 rOadshOw

2010-11-06T11:55:00.001+01:00

nokia N8 rOadshOw at Sg Wang

plasma TV decOrated with nOkia N8 frame

the glassrOom where jen hide inside. 3 days keep raining cOntinOusly, lucky...

if nOt jen might get SUN burned wOrking in a glassrOom.

anyhOw the air-cOnd equipped inside the glassrOom functiOned pretty well, jen didn't feel heaty at all.

On the left is the Old tOwn cOffee shOp

the HUGE signbOard

cOlOrful printers tO print Out sweet pictures captured using nOkia N8

free gifts available (while stOck last, lol)

pretty jen jen

sweet jen

(it was captured using nOkia N8- 12 Mp)

ah sOon

glad tat we can wOrked tOgether and have fun, even thOugh it was just 3 days.

jen started tO play games due tO this jOb....

have a sweet day everyOne

lOtzz Of lOve fOr ya, muacks ♥

迷惑

2010-11-03T05:54:00.000+01:00

时间眨眼间飞逝着，然而我还站在原地，不肯往前走。
我到底怎么啦？？心里不断的徘徊，一直犹豫不决。短短的一个月里，我竟然对生活不感兴趣了。心灵上的空虚，思路的疑惑，都让我刹那间感到非比寻常的疲惫。是因为我太贪玩了吗？还是因为我需要新鲜感？？我也不懂。

一直坚持默默付出。因为我深信，只要用心与奋斗，没有什么是克服不了的。也许，一天天，一年又一年的这样过，我真的累了。三年了，三年的奋斗，一个人面对种种难关。朋友们都说，我太孤单了。其实，我又何尝不希望可以找到可靠的人？像你们一样，甜甜蜜蜜，开开心心，幸福的过每一天。我只能静静一个人唉声叹气。唉～

在爱情里，我又何尝不是坚持着这信念。
当我在意，生气，介意，紧张，吃醋，误会时，却是无理取闹。试想想，如果你真正在乎一个人，真的爱她，你当然会有这样的举动。如果我可以保持无动于衷，那是因为太理智，还是根本没用心对你呢？太激动了，变成我的错，错得离谱！不介意，你却越来越放肆。爱情啊，真的让人头痛！我想，你们也经历过吧。

这些年来，我都毫不在乎了。人山人海里，我的他，依然不见踪影。
人老了，对任何事情都可以带着平常心面对。我想，我已到达了这个阶段。哈哈！你要走，我也不再苦苦哀求。你要留，我也毫无感觉。这个时候的我，还是个正常人吗？

当我把感觉释放出来时，换来的是彼此的伤害。当我把丰富的感受藏起来时，依然伤害了你，还有自己。后者，让咱们可以痛哭一场，放手以后，不再流泪，也不再痛苦。前者却是一而再，再而三的伤害。你会选择哪一个？？
我不怕痛，可以一次狠狠的对待自己，然后过得潇洒一些。我绝对不会选择忍受伤害，自己的心已经破碎不堪了，难道还要继承受吗？持续不断的痛，才是最伤人的。

生活好疲惫。爱情搞不懂。
我到底该怎么做？我还要一个人一步步走多久，才可以盼到他？那个我要的他。
追寻着自己的未来与梦想的同时，我才领悟到有人相伴才是幸福的。

你们找到自己的幸福了吗？

想说

2010-11-01T21:10:00.000+01:00

我该如何把心里的话说出来？只要我一开口，眼泪肯定不由自主的狂奔。

这一刻，只想说，谢谢你对我的好，谢谢你对我的关怀与照顾，真心感激你。

告别的那一刻，我真的不知所措。

我想付出过，算是圆满了。虽然深感不舍，却也曾经幸福过。这就足够了。

真心希望你们幸福 ^^

cOlOrful life

2010-10-30T12:32:00.000+02:00

i-city

a cOlOrful and amazing place fOr yOu tO hang Out especially at night. hOw jen wishes jen's family were here with jen, missing them sO much.. Okay, jen likes the design here, kinda fantacy.

fat jenjen, keep fit, keep fit, lOl ~

a sweet pOst ^^

the cOlOrs really light up jen's life, wOnderful ~

hurt ~

2010-10-26T20:43:00.000+02:00

it's been a lOng gOne.
jen is nOt here anymOre, but Only appear in fb at times.

Time flies ever since jen came tO KL.. jen really wishes the time can just pause right here, andlet jen breathe~ jen needs mOre Oxygen in Order fOr jen tO mOve On, seriOuslyin need Of tat.

after attended the class tOday, jen’s legs are pain andcrammed. Huh~

It’s a dream, Tats why jen cOntinue with it, nO matter hOwtOugh jen have tO gO thru.

It’s a future, tats why jen enjOy dOing it.. even thOugh jenhave tO endure the pain.

this is the way jen wants, this is the DREAM tat jen will hv to fulfill, right nOw. teeeheeee ♥

just nOw, jen cried. the very first time jen cried Out sO lOud, sO pain deep inside.

jen prOmised myself, nO mOre!!! this will be the last time fOr anybOdy tO hurt jen's feelings. damn pain!!! hOw cOuld this happens???

if sOmeOne willing tO treat jen as sincere as the way jen treated yOu, jen wOn't hurt them. jen will try my very best tO make them happy as well. but yOu, again and again, did the same thing tO jen. jen is kinda disappOinted this time. i can get a better One, dOn't yOu wOrry. i prOmise, jen can get a BETTER One. until tOday, didn't even able tO prOve tat all the "empty prOmises" can be kept. dO yOu think jen will still believe in tat??

*end*

arrggghhhh........

yesterday hurt jen's hands while wOrking, pain!!!!!

just nOw hurt my neck while changing clOthes. as yOu can see, jen is damn careless recently.

perhaps jen is tOo exhausted and think tOO much d. lOl...

time fOr bed guys.

dO miss jen jen ya. be strOng all my friends. ^^

the 100% real man

2010-10-21T03:46:00.001+02:00

wOke up early at 8am tOday. it is anOther brand new day, guess what??
jen had breakfast tOday, nOthing special cOz jen had breakfast everyday, but this time jen is nOt alOne. *wink wink* hOw jen wishes everyday wOuld be just like this, sweet, hee ^^

after breakfast, time fOr fb'ing, and a surprise...

rotiplanta: 你覺得 BabyJen Jen 會喜歡誰?

baby jenjen: lOl, what type then??

rotiplanta: no idea.. but i guess i noe wat type of guy she prefer~ haha

KC:

100% 大男人when protecting u outside the house...
100% 体贴小男人when take care every single things of u inside the house..
100% 上进心which guarantee you a stable future life
100% 忠于感情，与other gals有风度，但保持距离。。
100% ability to scientifically analyze and comparing pros and cons when you difficult to make decisions

jen is kinda surprise with KC's answer. 3 years we spent Our uni life tOgether, and he understand jen pretty well althOugh we seldOm hang Out mucchhh. impressive ♥ it is really unexpected that he is the One whO knOw jen deep dOwn inside. lOl..

yea, that's why it is sO damn hard fOr jen tO get the Mr Right until nOw. hm~
perhaps they are right, jen has HIGH requirements in searching Bf. anyhOw, jen pOnders is there any real man available????

Okay, later On jen will have tO back tO the dull life, withOut yOu.
jen prOmised myself, One week is enOugh. it is sufficient fOr jen tO gain as mucchhh energy tO mOve On, withOut yOu.
thanks man. thank yOu very much.
thOse sweet and lOvely memOries will resides in jen's heart fOrever ♥

~~anyOne Out there is meant fOr jen???~~

have a sweet day ya ^^

醒醒吧。

2010-10-19T21:29:00.000+02:00

又是夜深人静的时候，回想着近期发生的事。
一个人的时候，总是爱反省，也许只有这样才可以保持清醒吧。

原以为自己不会再重复同样的错误，可我现在依然犯错!!
只有自己清楚自己有多么的傻。傻乎乎的等，傻乎乎的期待，然而一次次的失望。

自己的路，始终都是自己去面对。
没有人，真的不会有人为你着想。
绝对不会有人会那么热心，那么贴切，为你付出一切。

我，太傻了。
这一次，又重蹈复策。

不断提醒自己，一切都是掌握在自己手里。
是时候让自己从梦里醒多来了!!!
那些承诺，那些美丽的谎言，我不会再相信，不会再期盼了。

这一刻，我清楚自己心里想的，自己要的。
只想说，我真的尽力了。
请原谅我，好吗？
原谅我的自私，原谅我。。。

世界上没有那么慷慨的人。你也何尝不是？
而我，这一刻，想要的莫非只有一个。我应该启程了。
就算需要放弃一切，我也不会犹豫。

你知道，我用心，也尽力了。

still dreaming ~

2010-10-19T18:36:00.000+02:00

hOliday mOod is turned On since final exam until nOw.

guess yOu alsO keep wOndering what jen did ya? nOwadays jen just hanging arOund at KL and have fun, sOmetimes even dOing nOthing at all. jen is free like a bird, it's tOtally free. ya, it's hard tO date jen Out thOugh, cOz there are things that jen have tO settle in the mean time. anyhOw, yOu can still cOntact jen in Order tO get a chance (if yOu want, Of cOurse). heeeeeee.

let's see what we have tOday^^

jen keep day dreaming Of nice fOod in KL, any suggestiOns???

hmmmmmmm~

a glass Of Orange juice tO ease jen"s thrOat after talking nOnstOp. teeeheeee.

let's see what they have here. jen's stOmach beating crazily~

jen can't stOp msg'ing in the mean time, sadly jen's hp is nOt in gOod cOnditiOn d.

well, that's a sign fOr jen tO get a new hp, any idea????

jen can't stOp taking phOtO, even while sms'ing and fb'ing. weeeeee ^^

days speed by, very hOrribly and terribly FAST.

jen is still in the path Of jen's dream. jen still dreaming~

anyhOw jen wOrked Out fOr the very first step d. thanks fOr thOse whO always stay beside jen and suppOrt jen all the time.

it isn't easy tO find the right persOn tO accOmpany yOu all the time.

it's kinda headache and irritating wake up withOut yOur lOves One by yOur side. jen missing family and yOu sO muccchhh.

jen lOves yOu ♥

yOu are the One i need

2010-10-17T14:46:00.002+02:00

it has been weeks jen reached KL, a place full Of entertainments yet jen felt sO damn bOred with this place. One thing jen feels greatz is that yOu are here with jen. life withOut yOu wOuld be even wOrst. thank gOd.

the streets are crOwded, the rOads are jammed, lOtzz Of strangers walking arOund, yet jen sitting here, with an empty mind, still wandering arOund.
hOw jen wishes there is sOmeOne tO lead jen tO a brighter place
hOw jen wishes there are pOwer fOr jen tO gO On in this dull life
jen spent years tO figure Out my Own way, but when time cOmes, jen is lOst, in the middle Of this hectic place.

jen's mind is still wandering... this time jen have tO admit that, im lOst.

" i need yOu, i need yOu tO be here with me. i need yOu tO hOld my hands tight sO that i wOn't gO tOo far. i need yOur strength, i need yOur pOwer in Order tO guide me, im seriOusly in need Of yOu... " jen's heart keep whispering tO myself.

this is the first time, the very first time, jen face this. Oh gOsh!!!
jen knew after tOday, things will imprOve. anyhOw, jen is still nOt strOng enOugh at this mOment.
dO yOu, dO yOu feel the same way as jen right nOw???

i need yOu, tO be with me. that's it.

yOu are the One i need

2010-10-17T14:43:00.000+02:00

期待

2010-10-10T08:23:00.000+02:00

最近的心情蛮低落，有点迷失自己似的。
那天依依不舍的离开家里，带着承重的心情，一个人开着车。
一路上，都是闷闷的。平时只要有音乐的相伴，就不感寂寞了。
这一次，这一次竟然不是这样的。

我才恍然大悟，原来自己“闷”了那么长一段时间。
一直渴望找到适合自己的那个人，可惜我。。。
原本爱笑的我，那发自内心的笑，早已不翼而飞了。

我的生活一团乱，一个人感觉好茫然。
两个人相依，互相鼓励的画面，总是美好。
我向往的完美人生，几乎只是妄想！你说，这世上哪里还有像你这样的笨蛋！
也对～我太天真了。世界已经没那么完美与美好了。

你说，人都是贪心的。
不管你怎么努力，在怎么优秀，也有被淘汰的一天，天啊～
至少我不会是这样的！我用力的反击！
找到属于自己的人，合适自己的人是多么难得的一件事。
如果你找到了，请好好珍惜，不要等到失去了才后悔。

而我，还在期待着～

愿你们幸福 ♥

你是最棒的 ♥

2010-10-05T11:05:00.001+02:00

对我而言，家永远是最温暖的。

学会爱一个人，珍惜一个人，都是从家里培养出来的。

若你不爱自己的家人，我想你不懂如何去爱其他人。

妈妈是最伟大的。

自小由妈妈独手抚养长大。

妈妈的教育，妈妈的叮咛，都在我脑海里，深深的烙印着。

这几天都送妈妈上班，下班。

看见妈妈孤单的背影，我好舍不得。深深的爱着她，却又无法常常陪在她身边。

妈，对不起。

妈妈的孤独，都不会轻易说出口。

我知道你也需要人陪伴。还好有妹妹在你身边。哥哥也在不远处。

每一次的离别都让我深感不舍。好爱好爱你们哦～

如果可以，我要你们永远永远都陪着我。那就是幸福了。这就足够了。

妈，因为有你才有今天这样的我。

因为有你的爱，才让我们在温暖的环境长大。

因为你的叮咛，你的经历，让我们也一样可以勇敢的面对一切切。

你的谅解，你的善解人意，都让我觉得光荣。

谢谢你妈妈。

妈，一天天看你老去。

我的心好痛。多想就这样陪着你，逗你开心，给你幸福。

好想这样黏在你身边，永不分离。好舍不得。。。

（好像永别似的）哈哈！！

妈妈每天都和我疯疯癫癫的度过。

每天吵吵闹闹的过。我想这种相处方式，在其他人家里，是稀有的吧。

妈，你是世界上最棒的。嘻嘻！

有你，真的很幸福。有你，是我们的荣幸。

爱你哟 ♥

jen's birthday 2010- part 2

2010-10-05T05:00:00.000+02:00

birthday celebratiOn part 2

late at night arOund 11pm if nOt mistaken, 2 nOtty fellOws date jen jen.

jen plan tO reject in the first place, but whO willing tO stay alOne during the birthday night?????

sO we are heading tO Mc D ipOh, cOzz it's jen's birthday, they wana make jen happy by feeding the favOrite fOod- french fries. teeeheeee ♥

jen is very very exhausted that day. the next day jen will be heading back hOme.

jen knew yOu all miss jen, sO dO jen ♥

fat face 1 *wink*

yian leOng fetch us there ^^

guess why he is sO busy????

he is trying his very best tO deal with the settings, sO that jen can On9.....see, sO tOuching.

thanks ya~ hahahhaha!!!

the wOrst part is jen can't rmb the passwOrd fOr jenjen accOunt.

Oppssss~ what is jen"s fb passswOrddd????????

Old jen jen, hOw cOme fOrget things sO easily..... heee.

they cant stOp laughing at jen. sOb sOb... yOu guys fOrget is jen's birthday d ya?????

missing sOmeOne far far far away at Kampar...lol.

nOtty jen jen invades the playgrOund ^^

sweet baobei

we are happy family ^^

lOnely jen during birthday, where r u???????

sexy ass~ lol~

thanks fOr celebrating with jen jen ya. thanks baobei n yian leong. muacks*

this is an unfOrgetable birthday celebratiOn. we rOck ipOh McD. hahaha!!!

一颗破碎的心

2010-10-04T10:49:00.000+02:00

她哭了。昨夜，眼泪缺了堤似的滑落。
因为他的话，好狠心的几句话。她的心都掉落了谷底，再也找不回来了。
我不懂如何安慰她。只能静静的抱着她，无声安慰。

该怎么说呢？

他是她的一切，她的全世界。
她努力付出，赢得了他的心。可惜，都抵不过时间的摧毁。
他最终还是想要自由，需要空间。

相爱的人，真的那么难相处吗？
如果需要空间，想飞，那不该选着她啊！！
她早已破碎的心，可以承受吗？？

她静静的一个人过。
原本笑脸盈盈的脸蛋，一瞬间不翼而飞。
最后，她崩溃了。哭得稀里哗啦的。。。

我希望她可以忘记，忘掉一切切。
忘记她曾付出过，忘记她为他牺牲与付出的一切。忘了吧！！！

男人啊，她真的很用心。
不要再辜负任何一颗真心了，好吗？？

但愿天下的有情人，都幸福的过。

jen's birthday- part 1

2010-10-04T09:49:00.000+02:00

One week hOlidays at hOme, jen really pampered myself in BED. teeheeee ♥

jen miss yOu, is there anyOne miss jen like crazy tOo???

right after the final examinatiOn is baby jen's birthday.

this is the very first time jen celebrate birthday with them. well, this might also be the last gathering with them after exam. we will be heading back hOmetOwn and begin with Our new life, new jOurney. jen missing yOu all like crazy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jen's baObei.

everyOne whO read jen's blOg alsO knew her very well.

baObei, yOu are famOus d....lOl~

jen and waiyee ♥

yian leOng

gOt miss jen Or nOt wO???? hOw mucchhhhhhh???

jOanne ♥

she is a gOok cOok. that day itself, she made us steambOat with her Own recipe, yummy~

jen can't resist the temptatiOn. hee^^

thanks my dear ~

mummy ♥

a nOtty mummy whO always bully jen jen. sOb~ mummy, life is bOring withOut yOu.

missing yOur bambOo laaaaa.....

jen hOpe yOu all stay happy n sweet ya^^

dOnt fOrget tO miss jen jen alsO.

Our next gathering will be at KL. *wink wink*

我家

2010-09-30T16:50:00.001+02:00

hOlidays begins. this will be a lOng One, lOl.

third day at hOme, jen feels sweet. *wink* Our hOme is merrier after jen is hOme.

jen is alOne in daytime, nite time is fill with lOve frOm mummy and sis.

jen hates lOneliness ever since jen study at kampar, anyOne Out there fOr jen??

家，永远都是最温暖的地方。♥

那是我们幸福的来源。我不想离开。好想就这样粘着家人一辈子。

愿你们也一样幸福 ^^

大学生活就酱告一段落。坦白说，我还有点措手不及。好没有准备好就毕业了～

宛如一场梦。可我，老了。。。

昨天，被激发了。忽然之间好想马上往前冲！！

可是，三年的时间，三年的经历，好累。这一刻，只想要好好呼吸，好好的陪陪家人。

我忽略了她们。

休息是为了走更长远的路。

你还会陪在我身边吗？？？

我清楚知道，家人永远都在。而你，已经消失于人群中。

亲爱的朋友们，记得，记得要保持联系。

我们不许忽略对方，不可以因为忙碌忘了保持联络。好吗？？

愿你们可以天天和家人在一起，幸福的度过每一天。

爱你们哟 ♥

4 little devils ♥

2010-09-26T11:22:00.000+02:00

befOre jen's final examinatiOn started, jen already received the very FIRST birthday present.

yea, nO dOubt it was frOm jen's baObei. lOve yOu mucchhh, my dear ♥

after that, exam begins...

that's why jen keep pOstpOning the entry until nOw.

a very HUGE present ^^

guess what is it???

fOur little devils ^^

they are sO lOvely, just like jen's baO bei.

jen's baO bei ♥

all Of them are BlaCk cOz jen lOves it.

they are jen's cOllectiOn as well, ♥ Black ♥

thanks again ya, baO bei.

because Of yOu, jen nOt alOne while facing prOblem.

because Of yOu, jen able tO smile happily.

because Of yOu, jen is nO lOnger alOne.

lOve yOu dear ♥

中秋节快乐

2010-09-22T15:01:00.000+02:00

耳边传来那熟悉的旋律，那首歌，唱出了我的心情。

其實我深深愛著你

这几天都下着绵绵不绝的雨。。。

老天爷也对即将分离的我们感到万般不舍。唉～

缘分真是奇妙，来时冲冲，去也冲冲。试问，有谁可以掌握呢？

你们有好好珍惜身边的人吗？

有好好爱护家人吗？

不要等到离开时才后悔，甚至才后知后觉。

今天，又是一场大雨。

好想家。

还好和干妈妈还有干爹吃晚饭，不然又要一个人度过中秋了。

谢谢他们陪我度过离家的日子。

我好幸福

♥

我还没离开，可是心里已经开始想念你们了。

知道吗？

朋友们，愿你们前程似锦。加油咯。

中秋节快乐哦。

it's september~

2010-09-21T15:13:00.000+02:00

this mOnth shOuld b fun, cOz it's september, nO 9 - jen lOves the mOst.

sadly, 3 years here, september is packed with examination. hm~

this time, this will be the last time jen sitting fOr exam. cOol !!!

jen can't wait fOr all this dull thing tO get Over and starts with new jOurney.

well, sOmetimes feels kinda lOst tOo. haha!!

after studies fOr years, all Of a sudden, just dOn't knOw what jen shOuld dO right after this.

perhaps a lOng lOng hOlidays.

jen's eyes, jen's mind, and jen's thoughts, shOuld set free frOm examinatiOn. lOl~

see what jen did with M&M chOcOlates. teehee ♥

jen jen ♥

jen just can't imagine that university life ended just like this, sO fast, sO damn bOring, sO damn DULL.

hOw cOme it has such a huge difference with jen's ideal uni life...huhu~ sOb sOb.....

One last paper tO gO On 25th and jen is FREE. yeaapppppiiiiii~

jen jen missing hOme badly...

enjOy the festival ya ^^

Fyp presentatiOn day

2010-09-18T05:09:00.001+02:00

the day befOre Our final year prOject presentatiOn, almOst everyOne is tensed up. lol~

the restricted time allOcated tO us, the cOntents. the PANELsssss..*sigh*

it was a 15 minutes presentatiOn in tOtal, 5 minutes was allOcated fOr Q&A sessiOn.

Q&A -the wOrst part, which can kills us. hahaha!!!

anyhOw, we have gOne thru it pretty well. hee^^

hOpefully the panels give us HIGH marks, that's what we want...Of cOurse.

jen jen after presentatiOn, ReLAx~~

dreaming while waiting fOr friends

jen n mOnica

yian leOng n jen

*best friend*

pOh tien n jen

jen n jaceme

thanks dear, thanks fOr sharing lOtzz Of infO while cOnducting the prOject.

jen n jing wei

jen n sylvia

jen n beatrice

jen n nick

jen n pei fen

mOst Of them are frOm biOmedical science.

well, jen jen is BIOtechnOlOgist ya^^

Deep within jen

我回来啦！

还不了解吗？

It's been a long gone :)

我的痛，只有我自己懂

学习， 学习。

该转身的时候就要转身离开。

我还有我自己

你我的自由

坚强的后果

就差。。。那个人

KLCC exhibitiOn March 2011

my first JOb

babyjen cOnvOcatiOn

babyjen cOnvOcatiOn

March 2011

small dream

我要的只是如此而已。。

一个人的世界

加油。。

time is lOve ♥

lOve comes along with Miracles ♥

emO day

年初三

胡思乱想

it's always abOut appreciatiOn

belated cOuntdOwn

CamerOn Highlands

2010

我懂了

back tO nOrmal

♥

乱了～

Nokia N8 rOadshOw

迷惑

想说

cOlOrful life

hurt ~

the 100% real man

醒醒吧。

still dreaming ~

yOu are the One i need

yOu are the One i need

期待

你是最棒的 ♥

jen's birthday 2010- part 2

一颗破碎的心

jen's birthday- part 1

我家

4 little devils ♥

中秋节快乐

it's september~

Fyp presentatiOn day

学习，学习。